S is for spoke to soon

Well that'll teach me won't it, thinking I was a superhero able to cope with chemo as if it were nothing! So Sunday got worse and worse in terms of nausea, temperature and generally feeling like shit that we called the hospital around 20.00 and they told us to come in and get checked out. They did checks and kept me in; it's now Tuesday evening and I'm working on the basis that I am being released tomorrow, as long as my blood tests are ok, but i feel so much better than Sunday evening, I can't believe that they will keep me in longer. This time around I've had my own room which is lovely for privacy but also for peace and quiet, so it's been really relaxing...ok, not the spa of choice maybe ( certainly not the food) but the level of care and the surroundings are excellent and I have been happy to be in here, it was just too hard at home. Well you live and learn, so next time I have chemo I know a few tips and tricks to help myself...like odour proofing the house in advance (sounds like we live in a disgusting state!) but with my super-heightened chemo sense of smell anything is strong!! It's been a couple of days of ups and downs, feeling sorry for myself, asking why this is happening to me, wondering what else is yet to come, feeling determined and telling myself to get a grip and man up. Think I'm back in good form now and ready to deal with everything again, looking forward to being back home and being with Ed. Apparently the next two weeks will just get better in terms of energy and appetite so my mission, which I have no choice in accepting, is to enjoy each day and pig out on anything I feel like eating!! I need to gain weight and so it's full fat choices from now on ( actually still makes me feel slightly nauseous at the moment though!) but have been assured that in the next few days, this will change. I can't wait for them to be proved right....