T is for third time lucky

On the brink of my third 'double dose' chemo session, I'm feeling fine. Just taking it in my stride, not looking forward to the side effects of course, but also not trying to think about it too much because I have no control and there's really no point trying to predict the unknown. I am obviously hoping that it won't be as bad as the previous two sessions.

Well, I have been packing things in to my last few days of 'alertness'! Had friends over yesterday morning for a coffee and lunch which was really lovely then had a lesson in the afternoon, also really nice. Mainly because my student is really great, but also because it's teaching again which I miss more than I could have predicted. So today is a 'chemo sandwich': I have a lesson in the morning, pop to the hospital for chemo in the afternoon and then have a group lesson at home this evening. Side effects don't normally kick in for 24 - 36 hours so I am counting on still being able to function normally until tomorrow evening.

We've got an appointment with our social worker/counsellor tomorrow morning; it's only our second appointment and the first one was in November so I think this is a bit overdue, but with hospital stays and Christmas the weeks have just flown by. Anyway, I think it's good for us to do together, maybe tough emotionally but necessary that we actually voice our thoughts to each other which we don't always do at home; not because we can't but generally because we try to focus on 'normal' life and when I am doing ok (most of the time) then we don't want to focus on 'the cancer'! or what I can't or won't be able to do. Of course Ed reads my blog so he knows how I am thinking and feeling, but I also need to be a support for him because we are going through this together and I think it's probably tougher for people around me than it is for me.

I've also been taking the opportunity to pile on the pounds in the last few days; I'm actually doing a chore by consuming the left-over Christmas chocolates and snacks - they need clearing up! We spent some of New Year's Day taking down all the cards and decorations and cleaning, so I am just continuing with that trend. However, last night I did feel a bit full... after some chocolates and then a change of direction with a slice of fruit bread and brie... one bite too far! (Craig that's your fault, it looked good when you did it at lunch!)

Well that's it for now, I will update again in the next couple of days from the other side!